Doesn't 11-11-11 sound much more as New Year then 1-1-12?
I don't know about you, but here every day I get chances to clean up some old stuff. To make room for an new beginning. To embrace the old, to un-cover darkness I forgot about (or I tried at least).
Do we see the chances? Do we take them gratefully?
Yesterday I did something which another person made angry and frustrated. Luckily she shared that with me. I felt that this was not about me personally but of course it still had something to do with a theme of my own.
Because I felt not emotionally I could easily go the source of the theme.
I lay next to my daughter waiting for her to sleep. I have found a new way for my daily meditations ;-)
Thinking about what happened it suddenly struck me. In short it is like Soul Retrieval:
Something happens to you which makes you feel hurt, sad, angry, etc. This is what we call the first wound.
In my case I realise a theme of being afraid to stand up to some one whose help I need. While I relaxt next to my little girl ;-), I felt my inner little girl. She was afraid to be anything els then loving and understanding towards her care-taker, because without her she was helpless. What was then a way of surviving, became later on a habbit. It always goes like that. The little girl made herself a new way of thinking to be able to survive. This is what we call 'A Soul-contract".
My contract became then:" I need always be loving and understanding to the person whose help I need. No matter how this person acts towards me. Because if I don't, I ll loos her help and I will be helpless and alone."
In that moment that was really true. When you are three years old you can not take care of yourself. When you are 20 and still acting on it, then you can call it a habbit.
And the habbit will keep repating itself untill you realise the source of it.
The first time it happened you made a promise or a contract with yourself.
Now it is the time to erase or delete all contracts you made for yourself which are holding back from a new, free way of living. Which will start from 11-11-11.
There are many ways to do this. Theta healing, Soul Retrieval, the Hawainhealing technic thank you-I love. Many more.
And also by talking to this subperson who made the contract in the past.
Like this for example:
"My little girl of three, you were hurt because of lack of love and safety. But what you developped because of this contract is that your gift is to bring joy and happiness to other people. You were trained to be loving and understanding no matter what. Now it is time to give this to yourself. Being happy and joyful is the responsibility of the person her or himself. No one can make another person happy. They have to do that themselves.
Free yourself from that task. Be happy and joyful and if some one is open for it, joy and happiness will be touched inside themselves. "
I am not helpless anymore. The situation when I was three is way back. When I say "thank you for the lessons it brought me, I love you, little girl, you were very strong (and smart and funny)", she can rest and play and just be herself.
When I look at my daughter I see that this is what she is doing. Just by smiling at people, she brings joy. We walk in the street and some one across the street is waving at her. I stop so she can look. She starts to laugh and people stand laugh back to her.
She is just herself. The day she was born she smiled. She was born happy and joyful. Now I have healed this in myself, she reminds me that there is nothing I have to do, just be.
My beautiful sweet and strong little teacher.
We are all helping each other to climb up the level of frequenties.
Some will do this by bringing joy. Others will help you by projecting their wounds at you.
Dark or Light, they are just two ways of reaching Home.
What will bring tomorrow for the new beginning?
